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Thursday, September 18, 2008

*sigh*

Just finished the boring Bio prac and went into the biomedical sciences computer lab to waste time till iftar... not really looking forward to doing any studying coz i'm already in my holiday mood!!!!

opened my e-mail and had 3 emails from MASCA committee members discussing the upcoming raya celebrations.. it's gonna be one HELL of a celebration (i hope) and it's gonna be REALLY tiring by the looks of it and I'm gonna be freakishly busy... i don't really mind all that coz that's why I had my hidung tak mancung pipi tersorong-sorong and go get myself elected as MASCA general committee, to work and contribute to all the Malaysian students here in adelaide, but all this planning of work reminded me of how my family used to work together the nights before raya in the kitchen, making all sorts of kuih raya and lontong and all that kind of stuff...
and this made me really sad thinking of how my family are gonna enjoy chatting while working with the lil' cousins outside playing mercun and the big cousins pranking each other and gossiping and stuff....

this REALLY made me sad and REALLY made me miss my family so damn much!! damn lah.. why did i wanna go study overseas in the first place? Malaysia's universities are just as good as any in australia or anywhere else! and plus it'll be much easier living in malaysia, not to mention much cheaper! and plus, there won't be any racist bums hassling me all the time... just coz both my parents studied overseas, then I have to study overseas? or is it coz the sterotypical view of malaysians? if u sstudy overseas, then ur considered to have succeeded... i guess my parents studying overseas kinda made a big impact on me.. hey! who doesn't wanna be like their parents right???

so I guess i'm stuck here in australia with the bums and the allergens and the dryness and the family-less-ness .... but hey, i still got my MASCA team with me... i bet they're gonna be replacement for my family, and maybe they'll make it easier for me coming raya night... or else... damn, i won't be suprised if i weep alone in the toilet :p

damn I'm a fuckin sissy ><;

8 comments:

~Ana~ said...

I also in a similar situation with you :p

But instead my family are at Sudan and i'm here at Malaysia stuck with Adi...(hehehe)

So i going to spend my raya with my aunts in Kuching...

I miss my little sis :p

Atif said...

capikos!!!

hang in there bro, and don't say the things you do (though feeling them can't be helped, that much i can understand >.<), k? sometimes we just mustn't "admit" to certain things, because admission makes it "formal", makes it more "real", and thus makes the situation worse. hang in there, hang in there please, k? the important thing is to never admit or assert certain things that would antagonise your experience there in Adelaide. it's not Aussie - it's just being in a new place and all, new experiences, and sooner or later the "discomfort" will pass =) you LOVE Aussie, and you DO love your opportunity to study overseas nih, so don't let your mood convince you otherwise. we cope, bro, we cope perlahan2. part of the reason i'm staying back in NZ over summer is exactly that - i don't want to end up "seeing" NZ as a problem, and therefore i want to force myself to adapt (it's crazy, but wth lol). stay strong dude - perlahan2 k?

and don't worry about feeling sad or "sissy" for complaining and feeling bummed out because of all this - it happens, and hehehe it does help to whine after all, kan? XD + =) i like to think i do it all the time, even if for recreational reasons lol XD

but ingat - the important thing is to not give up even though sedih2. you've got a pretty supportive environment kat Adelaide, and i imagine it's certainly much better than what i have in Auckland, so you can count on that at least =)

and hehe Raya will be a testing period for sure, but don't be afraid to cry =) at the end of it all, the important thing is our determination to cope wpun sedih2, so hang in there. i think mood-wise ko confirm boleh happy2, but perspective-wise keep it all ups too k? (aku pulak complete opposite lol =.= i can keep optimistic, tapi asyik wuwu je LOL).

stay strong bro =)

adieo said...

balikla sini cpat!!!!

zalikhaanas said...

patience is virtue,so just hold on ye :) experience matters,value ur time there and have fun :)

idzwan_phoenix said...

when i am writing this comment, i've just finished packing for my flight at 1005 the next morning n reading ur post really is not helping me at all..it makes me sad too..isk3x..i'm gonna miss the hectic of preparing for raya too..i'm gonna miss how we all sat together making the ketupat..for the past few years, i have been the one in charge of weaving them, putting the rice in, n boiling them all..i'm gonna miss that experience..even my dad is sad about it..he keeps saying "tahun ni takdela iwan nk jage ketupat"..isk3x..n then, i'm gonna be even sadder when raya come..all my relatives live so close together we get to meet almost every year, except this one..gonna miss them all..last year my family wore baju melayu until hari ke-4 raye..ahhahaha..i only bring two pairs of baju melayu to uk..sooooooooo sad..but hey, thats the price we have to pay for choosing the path we choose..you have to lose something to win something..plus, the only way you can appreciate the real meaning of wat you have is wen you experience wat it's like to lose it..

sarah said...

it'll be ok lah, you know it will. have faith. you can get trough this :)

Irving said...

I can appreciate this sentiment. I've been so desensitized from Malaysia that I have lost that "feel" for Chinese New Year...HECK, I don't even know when it is LOL!!!!

But you'll pull through, I'm sure. It is the rough bits in our everyday life that develop our capabilities and make us better persons.

Nous sommes de persons!!

Oh wtf that was random XD

iqbal hakim said...

Hang in there!

Asyek sume suroh hang in there je neh...

Ok ok...

Do whatever you feel like to do. as long as x lepasi batasan syarak sudah. :D

Jauh di mata, dekat di hati bebeh. hehehehehehei!!!

if ur dad can tell you stories in oversea, then you can do the same to your children and grandchildren and super grandchildren and the list goes on....

XD

Senyum lah abang handsome. seyum dalam tangis mu. gagagagagagagaga